Volute (self-published), 1994. Dutch edition of 500 copies.
Hardcover, 64 pp., b/w illustrated throughout, 320 x 315 mm. Photographs and text by Machiel Botman. Design Machiel Botman, Adriaan Monshouwer, Victor Levie, Fred Ritchin.
Between the end of 1990 and 1994 I made about seven different dummies for Heartbeat. Some with fiberprints, the others photocopied. This began after the unexpected passing away of my mother. I had photographed about 15 years and made selections from that period, about her of course, and about everything else that mattered: my relationships, my brother, my friends, my son and the places where I lived, mostly in The Netherlands and in France. Heartbeat became a visual poem in which happiness and sadness went hand in hand. Nothing was linear or chronological in the book.
The images I used for Heartbeat were taken without any intent to publish them in a book. I never was much of a planner and I photographed from intuition, always kind of reacting to things. I began by photographing directly around me. And that never changed much, except of course, my circles of living life became larger, or different, or something.